The House

Last week i read this really interesting book by DS. Yes i love reading romantic fiction, but this book was more about finding yourself than romance. I bought the book on the spot because after i read the story description i remembered i once had a strikingly similiar idea for a screenplay long back. The story about a woman going through a rough patch in her life and she stumbles upon a house, a big one which has remained unloved for years. A structure that wants to tell its own story to one who'd care to listen and restore it back to health. As she restores the house, she's able to restore her life and piece it back together by getting rid of what (and who) caused clutter in her life. The House by DS was on a subject very close to my heart and she did justice to the concept. I felt happy and hopeful that life is full of possibilities after reading the book. We just forget to be open to exciting possibilities - which Danielle Steele's books always remind me to be.

If you've ever seen the movie 'Under the Tuscan Sun', it too is a great story of a woman finding herself a villa in Tuscany. I've always wanted to own grand homes across the world (i still feverently do!). My fascination with homes could also do with the fact that my grandad owned a palatial mansion in Kuala Lumpur of which i have fond childhood memories. It was almost auctioned when i was 10 when my grandfather expired. It was 12 years later that i was able to set eyes on it again, when it belonged to someone else. It was painful to see but i was not without the desire of having it for my family again. Something always wants to relive former memories of glorious days which is why we keep going back, trying to pick up a piece of ourselves from a happy past.

Taking The Plunge...

As the time comes closer, the heart goes pitter-patter (sorry for sounding 'Oh-so English'! but no better word to describe it!). The impending wedding in December that i spoke about earlier has been well-worth the wait. For one, i've discovered that i can be this mean person who screams and cries at the drop of a hat (cellphone might be more apt) and the person i'm about to marry keeps his calm. Infact, it is at times like these when he becomes this loving caring virtuso. He does have his moment and his failings like the countless times when he's promised to wake up and go jogging with me, or invest some of his money in relatively safe investments, things that i'm hopeful will happen some day...

Today he cleaned up my computer table and re-did the wiring so that my PC, laptop and another gadget could all work together. Trust me, i'm greatful!

When you tell people you're engaged, they immediately place you in a category which is something i've been grappling with to this day. You're placed in the 'not available - therefore not hot-therefore invisible-therefore of no consequence box'. Its weird. Okay i understand that i'm not single anymore which clearly is a sign that i;m not available either, but lately i've noticed that my presence being of no consequence as compared to my single counterparts really ticks me off! Like at work, everyone will hear what this single cute chick has to say and when she says lets all go for coffee, everyone goes for coffee. I on the other hand have to cajole my way through *sigh*. The only people who are willing to have coffee with me are the other married women in my office...its like everyone leaves us alone. But the funny thing is, since i'm not yet married, they don't fully accept me in their clan either! So between the singles and the totally married, i am in between worlds.

This whole transition thing is really getting to me, because i often wonder, even after i'm married, i'll still be the same person...but to make sure i'm not categorised differently, i'll have to wear a different attitude alongwith the magalsutra!